It's 1 am

I can hardly sleep. 

All my nightmares escape my head.

Listening to music, and trying to find some semblance of peace. Sometimes I wonder if my brain just likes to play games. Maybe my subconscious thinks it's funny. Surely I do not. I want sleep.

I want to fall profoundly and utterly into dream. And perhaps wake only when I've truly found some rest.

Always Gold

Been doing a lot of thinking lately. Can't say I haven't tried, because I have. It's upsetting, frustrating, and I want to make it better. But I promised myself I wouldn't press. And lately it seems I'm knocking on deaf ears. Anyhow, thought this song fit pretty well..

...

 Back when we were kids

We swore we knew the future

And our words would take us half way 'round the world

...

But I am fine with where I am now

This home is home, and all that I need

But for you, this place is shame

But you can blame me when there's no one left to blame

Oh I don't mind

All my life

I've never known where you've been

There were holes in you

The kind that I could not mend

And I heard you say

Right when you left that day

Does everything go away?

Yeah, everything goes away.

But I'm going to be here till forever

So just call when you're around.