On Being 21 and The Weeks Ahead

I am a busy, nervous, excited, stressed, piece of human work right now. Seriously, I don't think I would be this worried if I didn't have a state exam. Really, I feel that's the bulk of my worry right now. 5 hours in one room and your career on the line makes me feel like puking. Finals feel like child's play this week. Except for maybe brit lit, my professor decided to be a jerk and make it a ridiculously "it will take you all 2 1/2 hours" exam. Fun indeed.

Someone special is also coming over. I am trying to remain calm. Seriously, that's hard. It makes it harder when everyone is hovering around me like "aww, arent you excited", and "why arent you more excited?" and "aren't you nervous, gosh I would be." and of course "IM SO NERVOUS FOR YOU." My brain wants to explode. -insert rubbing of temples here- Can't people see I'm trying to act like a normal person? I need to get through this week, especially friday's exam before I can allow my brain to hit panic/excitement mode. It's so hard when people are running back and forth and around in conversation, action and hypotheticals around me. BLAH! Yes I am nervous, yes I am excited, yes-I-am-all-of-these-things-but-i-dont-want-to-think-about-that-just-yet-cause-other-things! -exhales deeply-

Also 21. Birthday was good. Food was good; tres leches cake was yummy.  Also, I haven't gotten my horizontal ID yet. Too much effort, not enough money. Does it cost that much? I have other things I have to pay for.
I was given new hats. Normal person hats this time. Also there was a watch. I don't really use watches... but this one is beginning to grow on me. Guess I had to grow up sometime.
I kinda feel old.
Thank goodness I'm short.
Take that universe!

Farewell Zeroth

I don't even want to talk about this (in detail) but my beloved laptop has met with a terrible fate.   Maybe I shouldn't have started out with this, 'cause I really didn't want to go into details, oops.
Well it happened on like Tuesday or something. I now have to use the desktop computer. It's surprisingly up to date.. It's a decent computer. It's Windows 8 tho, blech. Beggars can't be choosers.
I like how the keyboard goes tappa tappa tappa tap.
I don't like how Skype is on this computer. If there's a way to change it, I don't know how.

Good luck to everyone and their finals and junk.

I spent some hours today doing crafts which was nice. Glue drying on your fingers gets annoying, especially when you need those fingers to press things and it just messes up the project! I couldn't find any bracelet patterns I liked tho, had to do other things. I wanted, like, beads woven into those flossy strings or whatever they're called. I lack nice beads anyway, bleh.

Alexis is old btw. I will be joining the drinking-age ranks in ~3 months.

Less Than 24 Hours

"Just twenty one and it feels like sixteen
It's the moment of my life I'm lost in feeling
...
All this growing up,
lately I feel like I've had enough." 

  There was a time I wanted to be 21...

Now that I'm here I have to wonder what's next

when life's rushing at me

and I'm afraid to lose my footing.

Time to take things

one step

at a time.